This past month I’ve found myself in a few situations that had me feeling less than thrilled with myself. While the details of these situations are too personal to share, I do feel comfortable confiding in you, my readers, about how feeling guilty and “hard on yourself” just sucks.
I consider myself a very decisive person–you typically don’t have to ask me something twice–I know what I like and don’t like, what I want and don’t want. The second I begin questioning something (myself, my actions, my words, etc.) that is when something is wrong. Usually. I strongly value the opinion of certain people in my life and often when I’m at a crossroad I’ll turn to them for advice. However, sometimes their advice doesn’t align with my gut feelings and then I’m left with conflict within myself. I know I’m being pretty vague here, but basically I’ve found myself in a situation with varying opinions, and what I’m left with is emotional wreckage brought on by myself.
When a feeling or thought haunts you, you lose control of your ability to let it go or move on. I’ve never been one to brush things under the rug, but I’m also not one for confrontation. Am I a walking hypocrite or what? To be perfectly honest, I don’t even know where I’m going with this. All I know is that I’ve been really hard on myself and I’m wondering when it is appropriate to ease up and move on.